Somewhere between the last entry till now, I went for an internship interview at St. Regis Singapore. I still remember the joy when they called me while I was stuck in the middle of a super boring lesson. I was literally bursting for joy that I think everyone in the classroom thought I was going crazy but that did not stop me because the day I've been looking for was here and I've spent a commendable amount of my time researching on the hotel and studying about its heritage. Interview day came, I was on a cab feeling all nerve-wrecked and blessed. Somehow it just occurred to me that I am lucky to be where I am today and whatever happens, happens.
Everything went as planned and I remember walking out of the interview feeling relieved and happy. Then came the harsh reality - St. Regis has already called the 2 interns and I was not one of them. Somehow the feeling of loss overwhelmed me and needless to say, I was dejected.
Somehow to me, it wasn't the feeling of being rejected that I felt sad for. It's the feeling of doing your best and not seeing ANY results coming out of it. Same like how I tried out for Bowling IG in my first year and being told I didn't make the cut.
However, life is not always a bed of thorns. I have friends to thank who have shown their care and concern for me. I will get over it. It's just a matter of time. I have family who knows how to live a wonderful life. I have loved ones who never fail to make me smile even when I'm down or angry. Truth is, 2010 wasn't really a bad year. It was just a year for me to try. At least that's the first step before you can really succeed. :)
