How do you describe sadness?

Sadness, like so many other things, are indescribable, especially to someone who has no emotional reference point. In order to describe sadness you must be able to feel it. Even then, you may not be able to describe it verbally, but feel it enough to understand it. To describe sadness to someone, I would have to hurt the person. I will break what is most precious to them and destroy everything that they have ever loved. This is how I would describe sadness to someone.

Felt a sudden urge to write this post. Not because I am experiencing sadness but because I think it is really hurting to see other people sad. Somehow I always feel the hurt whenever I see someone sad even though it may have nothing to do with me. It may be the look in their eyes or the way they frown. Sometimes what's lost is lost forever. Whatever positive thoughts we hope for is just wishful thinking. NOT trying to be a emo nemo but that is the fact.

Happy 2011!

2011 is here! A part of me was so looking forward to the new year and starting anew like the problems in 2010 were not brought over. But I know I still have to face them despite knowing it'll hurt. I just can't imagine the disappointment from my parents when they find out St Regis. didn't want their son as an intern.

Enough of not getting my first placement. One of the things I cannot really stand is how people like to ramble on about how we're nearing death cause 2012's nearing or even around mid 2011. Shouldn't people just live their lives happily and not worry about something that someone said who probably ain't absolutely right? Some may say its dark humour but soon it'll affect your perspective on life too. Trust me, have too much of something and it'll become a habit.

Okay, so with new year comes new resolutions. I haven't really been the kind of person who sets goals and stuff so doing a resolution itself is an achievement. Well, in 2011 I hope to -

1. Swim ONCE a week. Not because I wanna be fit and wear shirts that are 3 sizes smaller for my body but to keep myself healthy and to have a nice tan :) 
2. Start using a PLANNER. I need to start getting my life on track, starting with a pocket planner so that I do not have to cancel on people and stuff. 
3. $AVE. I realised I've been spending too much in 2010 to the extent that I have no spare cash for myself. I'm not saying I will completely not spend, but that will be when I am financially stable in terms of having a bank account that will not fluctuate. 
4. Stop being so BITCHY. Yeah yeah, I know. I'm working on it. Try being nice to people who messed with you first. Urgh. 
5. Get my DRIVING LICENSE. I'm taking my Basic Theory is a weeks' time and I'm hyped! Can't wait to drive around while I scoff at commuters on the public transport who would have to squeeze their boobs and asses to get on board. 
6. Read at least one BOOK every month. I need to start developing hobbies cause as of now, the only hobbies I have is gluing my eyes to the laptop screen. NOT GOOD.
7. Learn a new SPORT. Yes, this links to point 6 where I just showed that I have no life at all. Tennis is on the top of my list. Bowling was good but I wanted something where I can be outdoors. 
8. Be more APPRECIATIVE of the people around me. I do not deny that I tend to take people for granted and I hate that about myself. People always say "Do onto others what you want others to do onto you." but I just ignore that probably because people do not really notice.
9. To be more STUDIOUS. The little procrastinator in me has been the cause of my many worries during major tests or exams so hopefully in 2011 I will become a hardcore mugger. Maybe to the extent that I will drop from the social ladder and become a nerd. Yeah, that'll be great. 
10. Stop being so PARANOID. If anyone is the greatest worrier it'll be me. I guess I am too focused about getting my life on the right track. It's time to tell myself to live and let live. 
11. Stop speaking/writing SINGLISH. I don't know why but it's just me. The most common one that I think I use would be "eh" which I think is not even Singlish(?)

That's all that I can think of at the palm of my hand now. I have always been an optimist so I know 2011 will be better. At least it started out good. :)