My conversation with Steven Lim

So I was walking to the bus interchange today as usual on my way home and I got stopped by Steven Lim. I'm sure all of you knows him cause he is "famous and owns a BMW" (as told by him). Having seen him a few times before at different places scouting for models, he has not once approached me. However, today he decided to. Being curious, I decided to stay on and hear what he has to say.

There were many things he talked about during the whole conversation, but of course his main intention was so that I could join his modelling agency, if you could call that one, at a flat fee of $100. That simple. Everything aft er that will be settled by him. What I find interesting was what was mentioned in between the introduction of his modelling agency and the request of upfront payment of $100:

1. He's rich and drives a BMW.
He probably said this like 4-5 times? I don't know what he is trying to imply - that he can afford luxury stuff? Or that his popularity brought him there? Either way, whenever he said that, I swear my eyes casually glazed over. My uncle drives a BMW too. Do I look like I care? Doubt so. Then he went on showing me some letters from Mediacorp and payslips that apparently his trophies have gotten.

2. He said I could act.
His next question was whether I could act, and being the natural Singaporean I said no. From there, he said that when I said no I am already acting. I don't know if he is trying to play some reversal games on me or what but it sure as hell was not working. I know I could act, cause throughout the whole conversation I acted like I really am interested in what he was about to say, and that sure worked.

3. He said I have a nice smile.
This, in my honest opinion, is nothing surprising. I am not being thick-skinned here, but there are some things that you know you are certain of. It's like if you have a sharp nose, and people say that, you are not going to act as though you are so humble you can't take compliments. Everyone has their own set of characteristics that are beautiful, so does mine :)

4. He likened my dress sense to a style of a "megastar"
I was wearing my colourful plaid shirt (which might have been the reason why that caught his attention) and so he said that my audacity to wear bright and colourful colours makes me a "megastar". Megastar? Seriously? What does that even mean?

5. I looked like Xavier Ong.
I had no idea who that was until I went to Google him and voila!

Do I look like him? I doubt so. I am definitely not saying that he's not good looking or I am not good looking. I just don't see how Steven Lim can derive that both this guy in the pic and me look similar. That's all.

6. He said I had a good complexion

This made me raged. I swear! I pride myself in ensuring that my skin does not break out that easily and I know my skin has not been at its best lately but to say I have a good complexion?!?! It's like telling a blind man that he's not blind! Ugh. I love to be praised, trust me, but not this way. It's either he's delusional or he just wants my money. 

So after his whole talk, he asked if I had 100bucks in hand or in my bank account. I told him I did not bring much money out when I go to school, so he finally gave up and said to visit his website where his contact number can be found. Will I call him? No. Did he wasted my time? Definitely. To think I would throw in 100bucks and let you make me a "megastar"? You must be shitting balls! 

-A

Highlights of 2011

As usual, time passes us by unknowingly and we're at the tail end of 2011! I must say 2011 has brought me lots of happiness and it helped redefine the meaning of life to me. Of course there were the occasional inevitable days where I just feel down but those do not outweigh the amount of love I've gotten from my loved one, my dearest friends and my family. It definitely was not smooth-sailing but it sure was worth the ride.

Some moments in my life that I think are more prominent in year 2011 was my 6 months attachment at Amara Sanctuary Resort Sentosa, which wasn't my choice but even then, I loved working there. Also, I failed my driver's license test, which made me cried like some baby. Somehow all the bad events that happened to me are rejection-based. Talk about tough love.

Of course, I didn't forget how happy I was when love brought me to the Zoo and Night Safari on my birthday, the amount of well wishes I received, the gifts that were showered on me, the surprise, the chalet with love, the 3 days 2 nights cruise on Royal Caribbean and the mere fact that I still have two of the bestest friends in the world.

As of now, I am looking forward to pass my next driving test and Canada trip on 17th! Till then, I should be posting more often! :)

-A

Maybe it's time..

time I came back to blogging. Life has given me a little too much to handle. 

(It's Not) Goodbye.

It's the end of the second semester and I've just realized I've not written a post for quite a while.

This semester, like any other, passed real quickly. And with every semester you make a few really close friends (and of course enemies but let's just keep this post emotional). So this is me, sharing with you those who might have made an impact in my life during this course of 4 months.

      

        

1. (Susan) Ang Wan Ting, KCarol Liew, Garell Khoong, Soh Xi Wen, Amanda Lee, Soong Wen Lin, Donald Tan

Wan Ting and I started out thinking we'll never make any real friends during the start of the semester, but like all human beings, we have our wrong moments. Knowing KC, Garell and the rest was like putting the missing puzzle pieces together. We made jokes at teachers whom made our day like hell, we webcam-ed even though we were in the same classroom, we gossiped throughout every second in class, we had our own groupie (named B.M.W.S. which meant Bitch, Mother Fucker, Whore and Slut.) Thank you, for making this 4 months interesting for me. :)

And with new friends comes old "besties".

2. Cheryl Tan, Sajuto Tio, Samuel Ho, Gillian Chua, Amin

These were the people who were there right from the start. The people who are like your shadow, always there but not saying a word. We went through a lot together as a class before and till today we still have each other's back. I love every single one of you, just for being there whenever I needed you and being my big brothers and sisters. :)

Attachment's here and we will be separated for 6 months but I'm sure we will still keep in touch. Till then, it's not goodbye. ;)


-A

How do you describe sadness?

Sadness, like so many other things, are indescribable, especially to someone who has no emotional reference point. In order to describe sadness you must be able to feel it. Even then, you may not be able to describe it verbally, but feel it enough to understand it. To describe sadness to someone, I would have to hurt the person. I will break what is most precious to them and destroy everything that they have ever loved. This is how I would describe sadness to someone.

Felt a sudden urge to write this post. Not because I am experiencing sadness but because I think it is really hurting to see other people sad. Somehow I always feel the hurt whenever I see someone sad even though it may have nothing to do with me. It may be the look in their eyes or the way they frown. Sometimes what's lost is lost forever. Whatever positive thoughts we hope for is just wishful thinking. NOT trying to be a emo nemo but that is the fact.

Happy 2011!

2011 is here! A part of me was so looking forward to the new year and starting anew like the problems in 2010 were not brought over. But I know I still have to face them despite knowing it'll hurt. I just can't imagine the disappointment from my parents when they find out St Regis. didn't want their son as an intern.

Enough of not getting my first placement. One of the things I cannot really stand is how people like to ramble on about how we're nearing death cause 2012's nearing or even around mid 2011. Shouldn't people just live their lives happily and not worry about something that someone said who probably ain't absolutely right? Some may say its dark humour but soon it'll affect your perspective on life too. Trust me, have too much of something and it'll become a habit.

Okay, so with new year comes new resolutions. I haven't really been the kind of person who sets goals and stuff so doing a resolution itself is an achievement. Well, in 2011 I hope to -

1. Swim ONCE a week. Not because I wanna be fit and wear shirts that are 3 sizes smaller for my body but to keep myself healthy and to have a nice tan :) 
2. Start using a PLANNER. I need to start getting my life on track, starting with a pocket planner so that I do not have to cancel on people and stuff. 
3. $AVE. I realised I've been spending too much in 2010 to the extent that I have no spare cash for myself. I'm not saying I will completely not spend, but that will be when I am financially stable in terms of having a bank account that will not fluctuate. 
4. Stop being so BITCHY. Yeah yeah, I know. I'm working on it. Try being nice to people who messed with you first. Urgh. 
5. Get my DRIVING LICENSE. I'm taking my Basic Theory is a weeks' time and I'm hyped! Can't wait to drive around while I scoff at commuters on the public transport who would have to squeeze their boobs and asses to get on board. 
6. Read at least one BOOK every month. I need to start developing hobbies cause as of now, the only hobbies I have is gluing my eyes to the laptop screen. NOT GOOD.
7. Learn a new SPORT. Yes, this links to point 6 where I just showed that I have no life at all. Tennis is on the top of my list. Bowling was good but I wanted something where I can be outdoors. 
8. Be more APPRECIATIVE of the people around me. I do not deny that I tend to take people for granted and I hate that about myself. People always say "Do onto others what you want others to do onto you." but I just ignore that probably because people do not really notice.
9. To be more STUDIOUS. The little procrastinator in me has been the cause of my many worries during major tests or exams so hopefully in 2011 I will become a hardcore mugger. Maybe to the extent that I will drop from the social ladder and become a nerd. Yeah, that'll be great. 
10. Stop being so PARANOID. If anyone is the greatest worrier it'll be me. I guess I am too focused about getting my life on the right track. It's time to tell myself to live and let live. 
11. Stop speaking/writing SINGLISH. I don't know why but it's just me. The most common one that I think I use would be "eh" which I think is not even Singlish(?)

That's all that I can think of at the palm of my hand now. I have always been an optimist so I know 2011 will be better. At least it started out good. :)